High School seems like it is going to suck. The first thing I realize is that "I am clanless" (pg. 4). I have no friends. Most of the school hates me. If only my old friends, especially Rachel, bothered to learn what happened at that party. I might still have good friends or friends in general. The only good thing is my new friend, Heather from Ohio, who doesn't seem to hate me, and seems clanless as well. For now, at least. I have nobody to talk to. I have nobody to hang out with. The only good thing about high school and what kids look forward to is seeing your friends every day, and I can't even have that this year or maybe ever again. This is going to be a very bad year. I wish I could just close my eyes and this all would be a bad dream.
I chose the quote "I am clanless" because it shows the struggle to fit in. A struggle that everyone can relate to at one point or another in their lives. No matter how full the school building is you still feel alone and isolated. It is almost like you are a disease. No matter what you do, you are still hated and laughed at. In the end, all you need is one good friend with a common interest to enjoy life with. It was a blessing from God that Heather came to this school as a new student at Merryweather High. This helped the main character, Melinda not feel so alone, at least in the beginning of the school year. She was able to have a few months with Heather before things started getting weird.
There is no feeling that is worse than feeling alone. Unfortunately, I too can relate to the feeling Melina shares in this story. Not the rape part but the sense of isolation and loneliness. When I left my previous school to attend International Studies Charter Middle / High School I left all my friends behind. I soon had friends that I could rely on though, and it made the new school environment easier. In the main character's story her case of loneliness takes on a deeper and sadder meaning.
Journal entry: 2
"I want to leave, transfer, warp myself to another galaxy." (pg. 51) This is one of the many thoughts that I keep to myself. There are so many reasons why I thought of this. The only person I can talk to well is Heather. I wish I was able to speak to my parents or my teachers the way that I talk to Heather. The fact that IT is in my same school doesn't help me. I wish that I never needed to see IT again. I feel like my closet is my own portal to another galaxy. I am turning it into a home away from home. A bit more work and I might just live there. Right now, Heather wants to be part of the Marthas. She finally wants to join a clan. I am not sure if that is good or bad. I just hope that she does not spend all her time with them. I am not sure when the school will finally keep a mascot. It would have been easier to just to stay the Trojans. What was the real problem with Trojans. I don't think the person that suggested it even knows.
I chose this quote because it represents how much she detests...